For The Love Of Art

Ah! The WileyPlus assignment is out! *runs to do*

Well, I guess when you go into uni, you get lots of cool things. Not just the technology and systems. But also, how the assignments are done. I have just completed my WileyPlus assignment :), something we have to do every 3 weeks or so. Got something new that I'd wish to share :P *not sure if I'm allowed to tho, but here goes*

Behold, THE ULTIMATE ORGANIC CHEMISTRY DRAWING JAVA PROGRAMME!

Drawing my dipeptides

My final answer.

So that's what you call a MarvinSketch. Honestly, it's one of the most troublesome programmes. Pulling elements and bonds here and there! Can't I just use an interactive pencil and draw some cool structure like this?

On second thought, maybe not. Haha. Life rocks when you go to uni :P

Un-surprised

Gonna be a little emo. Well, what can I say? It's not like I never saw it. I was never surprised. Yes, excuses may come all they want. But still, sometimes, you feel like you're like a louse, being such an annoyance that you don't even know it. Yet, sometimes you know you did nothing wrong.

The world is constantly changing. For one moment, you thought you belonged. Yet at one moment, everything goes behind you.

What can I do? I knew it from the start. Surprise? Nah. I guess I was trying too hard. Maybe it's time for something fresh and leave everything behind. At least I can say that I did my best. For all that I know, a small notice would not be even sensed.

Maybe it's not what you did wrong. Maybe sometimes, it's some people's problem. They just don't value you enough. Even after all you tried and constantly seeking ways to improve, it just wouldn't work for you. Why is it like that? How I wish life was ever fair to us all.... Then, I would not suffer from this predicament. This just s*cks.

Remembering what a friend said last time, I guess it was true. Would it make that much of a difference? Trying to defy it, every attempt was thrown to fight it. I guess like another friend said, desperation leads you nowhere. True enough.

Just want to feel known. So much for the past....

Blah

Blah, exam approaching... in a month :(. Sigh. Oh well, time to hit the books. And just got back Psych report.... AHHHH!!! And I thought I did it perfectly :(

Well, to clear that crappy mind, some random discovery courtesy of TS and I.... @@. *from Nokia 6120 :P*

Notice the chicken wing having "spikes" @@..... *thankgodtakmakan*

Message : *IwonderhowIthoughtofthisfromthepic* Nothing is Perfect! Even after you tried....... cooking/assignment-ing to the max! XD

The Miracle

Finally, a breather. What I'm supposed to do is done. Now, on towards the light! Soon, it'll all change and a new beginning will arise. But anyhow, it has been one heck of a road.

Whether I get what I want or not is another matter. Even if I ever wanted it so dearly, all I can hope for now is a miracle in life. Something, that I admit I have not seen for a while. Then again, I might see many miracles happening around me already, not knowing it... or perhaps, neglecting it.

I have always wondered why my life is this way. To be honest, even if I can say others are pessimistic, it still does not take away the fact that I have a doubtful, somewhat pessimistic thinking as well. Even what I say on this little spot contradicts what I have previously thought. I guess, this is the art of learning. Perhaps, after all those negative thoughts, you finally realise that what you keep thinking of is futile. It is practically useless to keep thinking that life is going against you.

True, you can't deny the fact that life sometimes feels like waves of tsunami smacking your very soul. I certainly felt that way some time last year. It feels really bad, I admit. For someone who has faced very little difficulties, sometimes, the smallest of obstacles can prove to be a great one to jump over. Not obstacles like Chemistry that some face, but obstacles like attachments and life in general. Rejection is simply something you may not fancy in that particular time. But hey, immaturity got the best of me I'm afraid.

Life is like a living hell? Yeah, this is probably on everyone's mind at times. You probably find life to have no meaning. The more you think of it, the more disappointed and saddened you become of how your life is. You look at the people around you and wonder why you can not be like them or have what they have. You see people having what you can't have, and keep dreaming on, only to let the dream disappoint you time and time again. It is then that you feel depressed. Doesn't everyone go through this?

But if you think of it again, if everyone goes through this, wouldn't it make sense that we are all envying one another. When this happens, wouldn't it just indicate that we are just fools who only know how to appreciate what we don't have. Why don't we just appreciate what we have and make the most out of it? Easier said than done, especially even when you don't want to think that way, you just can't help it.

How we wished life was just filled with miracles. Everyday, why won't there be a world where everyone suddenly become billionaires. Why won't there be a world without broken hearts? Why won't everyone get what they want! But if you look at it, THE WORLD IS THAT WAY. If you take a look at relationship, if A and B likes C, there is bound to be a problem. If both of them gets what they want, would you mind if we cut C in half? Either way, there is bound to be a broken heart.

In fact, miracles do happen everyday. Everyday in life, you see couples come together, cancer survivors, near escapes etc. Doesn't it strike you that you see a miracle every time you watch the news? If you learn how to appreciate what happens in your life, you would also realise that miracles happen everyday in your own life! It's just that we are too ignorant or fortunate to realise the very fortunes we have.

Perhaps something would show how life is to be appreciated. How miracles can happen anywhere when destined to. Today, a mother let go of her pram with her baby in order to pull up her pants. In the process, the pram starts to move right down into the railway track right in front of the mother. The mother watched as the baby and the pram fall onto the railway track as a train steamrolls past the station. The mother lunged at her infant, desperate to save the precious baby......... It was not enough...... Thankfully, the emergency brakes were used. However, the train already ran over the tram with the baby.......................... Sad now? Here'some prove for you. Observe the pram and the train passing by.

BUT WAIT! THE BABY WAS SAFE! How?! I don't think Mr. Universe can survive a train running over him. How can a baby survive? In fact, the baby only sustained a small bump on his head? How can the softest and weakest of skin muscles survive such a large force? I got one word for ya - MIRACLE!

Besides, if you think of it, how we ever came to exist is a miracle itself.... Hence, don't feel so bad about life, the thought might just be the very object that eats it up instead. Be strong, be positive!

Where U At

My message to MBBS degree (LOL, I'm not joking)

Well, check out the translations if you don't believe me ;). Anyhow, I bet Sau Fei would love this song too haha. Thought I'd put a song for all of you who are disturbed/depressed/busy/exam-ing/studying/emoing people these days. Time to take a breather from all that crap. Listen to a nice song after a crappy day like how I told my interviewer I'd do it. Life is not meant to be dull, but enjoyed to its fullest. Feel the love!

Take it away, Taeyang-shi!

Goodbye

From the UoA computer suite:

If you are thinking that I am leaving this blog to rot, you are one crazy hag. Just a title to scare some. Then again, it seems like a very appropriate title for what I am about to say.

If some of you might be aware, I'd probably be moaning about bad interviews. Well, it is true. Nervousness got to my head I'm afraid. The once control and preparation I had was all gone in front of what was to be my Biology lecturer, who looked friendly yet sometimes a bit uninterested. You would know that I really have doubts on a lot of things. That glimpse of his disinterest just caught my attention, probably affecting how I was to perform. You can't help it. When you are blabbing tons of stuff out which is not crap but full of logical points, you would surely feel weird when the interviewer does not give any reply or makes a rather "no-effect" face. I guess it is safe to say that my lecturer has darn good acting skills to intimidate the ones he interviews, hah? Maybe XD.

Well, of course, the usual messing up with words and having your tongue tied continued to wreak havoc onto my interview replies. It kind of sucks to know that after all those interviews, I still get the same feeling every time - "Saying something then regretting that I said it too soon, making me mess up my points." Yeah, I think it was evident a few times, which could have made him have the thought that I prepared the entire thing which was supposedly unprepared.

Anyhow, what's done is done. After one day of complaining, I think it's safe to say that I have expressed every discontent I had towards my interview and come back to the highway again. Not confident as after I did my PQA. This was a totally different feeling. It was a normal interview which I personally screwed up. All I have to blame is myself, and then move on with life. You know, even if I don't get this, there's always an alternative route to it.

I should know. I've been through it. If you want to talk in the point of university acceptances, I bet no one other than perhaps JR (He applies too many, his fault :P) would understand how rejection has become a very normal process in my life. In April, almost all but one rejected me. In June, more came. Furthermore, I get official rejection letters from places like Harvard. Hey! I GOT A HARVARD LETTER, AIN'T THAT COOL?

Maybe not. But the point is, even if a girl supposedly dumps you, you think you won't have another girl who is equally as attractive whether outside or in that doesn't want you. Think about it. With all your heart, you can do everything *ripped of With All Your Heart by plusOne*. Even if an earthquake strikes Vanuatu, it didn't strike Fiji.... well in geological terms, yet. But anyhow, life is just like that. Whenever you fail, you mourn and cry over spilt milk. Sour grapes. After that, you naturally find it the norm. Like recently in Psychology, I learned that the change in happiness is short-lived. Even if you win the lottery, wouldn't you be happier for what, 2 years? After that, you tend to be as happy as before.

Same goes for sadness. Mourn about it, smash yourself for it. What you are doing is wasting your ATP that your body so dearly needs. Think over it and correct yourself. Improve yourself. If life were simply just about winning, who is going to lose? Someone is bound to. It might seem dark at a point. But hey, find another way towards the light. Perhaps, because of rejection, you can find something better in your life! Certainly what I got. Why not try it?



Remember, sometimes goodbye IS a second chance! :)

Don't Eat My Pringles!

Haha, Pringles. Potato chips. Irresistible! Anyhow, something I thought I'd help advertise. Done by CLHS Juniors! XD

In the Nuffnang and Pringles advertising competition! :D >>>>> Here!

Epicness. More info later :P

I Had A Bad Day

Nothing is perfect. I guess it has just been justified hah? At one moment, you thought finally you have finished everything there is to do and have a really good day. At another moment, things just never go your way no matter how much you want it to be your way. Sometimes, it's just not your fault but because of others, you have to take the pain and disappointment. Yet, sometimes, everything seems mixed and all jumbled up.

Things like this happen. The day I just went through was just indescribable. Some things were done was just not my fault. Everything was because of someone else's mistake. Although I hate to say that the mistake repeated itself in a matter of days, it still happens. And with this mistake that affected you, it makes your entire mood for the day change. Everything that you don't desire just flows right into your life.

They say a bad mood and mindset ultimately make you encounter negative happenings. I never believed it. I thought as long as you tried to make it better, you can change destiny. True that a bad mood can lead to this, but sometimes, it's just luck. Why do some people start the day sad and yet end up with so much fortunes? Sometimes, they don't have positive mindsets like I do as well. And yet, everything comes to them. It's luck for me.

But what's true about that statement is that a bad mood leads you to a bad day. Contradicting? Let me explain. Think of it like lava from a volcano *sorry I can't think of anything less violent after today's happenings*. It starts off at the peak, and then slowly flows down. The more common illustration are of basaltic lavas *pardon me for Geology terms*. They branch as they travel down the slope of the volcano. What started off on top ultimately branches off to the bottom and causes the rest of it to happen. The lava flows from the start to the end.

Well, using this simple illustration, put it into real life. Start the day with a bad mood.... and you do things with little mood. Every time someone just had a disappointing occurrence, they wouldn't have the feeling to do anything else. It's natural. I wouldn't say that the bad mood aura attracts more negative things. It just simply causes it. When you have a bad mood, you do the next stuff with a bad mood. And when those end up not satisfactory, you get an even worse mood. With this mood, blah blah blah. You get the picture. Ultimately, I guess it depends on how you control your mood.

Pain and disappointment are self-imposed. FALSE. They are definitely not always so. When someone else is at fault, you are sometimes the victim of it. However, it's these little things that lead to further mishaps. Like today. I started with a bad mood, leading me to forget a document, leading me to waste more cash AND leading me to waste my time. And because my bad mood made me forget another thing, it cost me even more time! That sucks right? Yeah, even the shopkeeper saw it.

How to deal with this? EQ! Yes. I admit I have low EQ. But well, my recovery and realisation rate is super high, I dare say. Upon suffering pain, I usually panic, as most know me. After the loss, I usually go back to the "no feel" state. Sometimes, it's because the emotions get the best of your logic. If you let your logic take you through it, sometimes, you would see that it isn't so bad after all. You'd start to realise that, it's just another one of those days. Get over it like how you get over every challenge. Even if luck is against you, GO AGAINST IT! Fight it! It takes a true warrior to survive a battle! Nothing stopped men of Sparta from victories in the past. Although they soon succumbed, they still had victories and triumphed against the invaders. Even with the challenges ahead, WE CAN STILL DO IT!

And oh, thought I should include something for this instead of plain text. Sorry if I wasted your time reading my rants haha. Something familiar to refresh your minds :)

Message of the Day :

Cause you had a bad day

You're taking one down

You sing a sad song just to turn it around

You say you don't know

You tell me don't lie

You work at a smile and you go for a ride

You had a bad day

You've seen what you like

And how does it feel for one more time

You had a bad day

You had a bad day

Go for the ride. At the end of it, there comes the light :)